pshaw_raven: (Antlered Owl)
 Things are getting a little busier here as we gear up for fall, Tokyo, and the Black Creek 10k. Overnight lows for my area are sometimes starting with a 6 instead of a 7, and daytime highs are often in the 80's rather than the 90's. We'll be having some hotter weather over the next week but it shouldn't be too bad, and by the time we leave in October it'll be kinda comfortable. Last year's weather data isn't as useful because it was unusually warm, but previous years tell me we may be able to open the house before we leave, and we can definitely have it open when we come home. I'm also keeping an eye on Tokyo, and I picked a random weather station near Haneda International to follow. Japan has been having a shit time lately between typhoons, earthquakes, and insane heat, but the temps I'm seeing on this particular station are also starting to come down, so I think my clothing selection will be perfectly fine. If I'm too warm I can always go digging around in Mode Off, since I should be able to wear the larger Japanese women's sizes.

My neighbor who graciously accepted an offer of a cat-sitting job says she's still available to do it. I wanted to check in with her since I made the offer first in July, and they weren't even back in their house yet at that point. They've been able to move back in - just in time for her girls to go back to school - and got settled, so I emailed her again. I guess it also helps that I'm paying her, not just asking her to do it out of the goodness of her heart. So next month I'll walk her through the house and the simplified daily routine for these guys. I'm also going to write up a cheat sheet - I like to have written lists and such, so I tend to make them for other people, too. One of the cats she'll actually get to see and pet. One is a maybe - if Feisal decides she's okay he'll come out and visit. Crowley and Sheba will just be little black phantoms. I promise there are actually four cats here, LOL. 

I finished the side story, so the whole Dream Speaker comic is up on DA now. I'll be adding click-through links at some point, despite the fact that DA used to already have them coded in and you didn't have to fiddlefart around with their shitily coded nightmare site but sure I have nothing better to do why not. I'm working on some illustrations and personal pieces right now, plus learning to use some of Clip Studio's manga features, like easier ways to utilize their page layouts, and how to modify textures. Once I'm home I'll be getting to work on The Beast of St. Beryl's, which I'm planning out right now and trying to plug plotholes, sketch maps, etc. I'm also looking to do some character sheets, just straight-up drawings of streets, rooms, and buildings, all that sort of thing which I'll probably post on DA also if anyone is interested. And I will be setting out my begging bowl, I mean linking to my Ko-Fi account. It's a good way to help me purchase the coffee and cinnamon rolls that creativity runs on.

I had yet another dentist appointment, and now the cavities are taken care of. He spent a lot of time on one in the front, getting everything just right, but he built up the compound so much on one side that it's now next to impossible to floss between those teeth. Hopefully that'll either wear down a bit, or when I'm back for my cleaning Thursday I can mention it and see if he can grind that down a tad. Once this final cleaning is done I'll look like a regular person again, and I'll be able to do shit like ... smile. Talk with my mouth open. Eat in public. Yes, dental shame is a real thing and I had it really bad. Gah. Happily insurance is picking up a lot of this, so it's not even costing me super-duper amounts of money to get this all done. The reason I let it go for so long was that I didn't have insurance, and without it dental work can cost a fortune. Anyway, after the numbness finally wore off I had a little residual pain in my gums, but nothing bad enough to even bother taking an Advil for. Today I'm dandy - no hot or cold sensitivity where the new fillings are so HUZZAH. 

Anyway, I should get on to things if I want to have time to run, do yoga, get some art done, and everything else scheduled for today. Yesterday I was almost useless sitting around with Anxiety Brain. (Dude, we've had cavities drilled before it's not that bad...) I did manage to run and do some strength training but didn't get much house keeping done. Today's a 50 minute tempo run - one of the longer ones I'm doing now. I'm running every day until the 10k, where I'm hoping to smoke the fuck out of my previous PR, then I take two weeks "off" in Tokyo (no running but man am I going to be walking a lot) before taking up Dopey Challenge training when I get home. Next year if we're not traveling anywhere I'm hoping to do the Jacksonville Marathon, which falls in December, AND Dopey in January. I think I can handle it physically provided I schedule my training the right way, and Jax falls around a good time to start tapering for Dopey, so run one, then taper off, then run the other. Dopey isn't an event where I try to PR anyway, so it's more a matter of finishing than finishing fast. ANYWAY BYE.
pshaw_raven: (Autumn Leaves)
 After probably a month of using it I finally just had an emotional breakdown last night because of AnkiDroid. 

In a nutshell, the app assigns you new flashcards each day, along with review cards. For the kanji deck I was using it was set to twenty new cards and between 50 and as many as 85 review cards daily. Anki has something users sometimes call the Anki Avalanche, where cards pile up each day and, of course there's no way to just dismiss them. There's also no way to pause or suspend a deck, so I started feeling locked in to this daily thing, I didn't feel like I was learning as much as I could because the deck controls are not even remotely easy to use, and it was creating a constant daily psychic & emotional pressure that finally came to a head around eight last night. I tend to start winding down at eight and actually go to bed at nine, if this gives you some idea of how things were going.

After combing Reddit and various support forums and manuals I found a way to kinda sorta suspend my deck. I think a lot of the support info I found related to Anki Desktop, where I'm using Anki Droid for my Chromebook, as the big trick for suspending an entire deck didn't work. Now, if I wanted to suspend each card I could do that - but there are 2,200 kanji. I am NOT long clicking and suspending over two thousand cards one. at. 
a.
time.

So after blowing up at Fox, throwing a headset, and almost throwing a laptop, I ended up deleting the stupid app entirely. Fuck it. I don't need this - I feel like I have too many things demanding my attention each day, and only part of them are things I really want to do and look forward to. Japanese practice is not one of those because I feel like I'm making no progress, and being able to read the kanji for "cat," "four," or "deceased" isn't going to get me that far in Tokyo. Duolingo at least has a speaking element, but I know native speakers will sound a lot different from a curated language learning program's voice which is probably designed to be easily understandable. 

Fox helped me dump the app after listening to me go off and reminded me I have physical flashcards that go at whatever pace I want, and I hope felt less attacked after learning I was angry about shitty app developers who can't bother implementing a feature users have apparently been requesting since at least 2016. He also pointed out that with this particular deck, people are probably studying to pass the Japanese language proficiency test, and it might not be the right thing for someone who isn't looking to move to Japan and get a job. Besides, as I found out after using them for a while this morning, the printed cards (from White Rabbit Press) have more of the different kanji meanings, where the Anki deck was relying almost entirely on James Heisig's Remembering the Kanji - the source of the "kanji stories" I mentioned. 

ANYWAY. Fall is almost here! But P'shaw, it's just September 1, it's not even technically Labor Day yet, you say. I TELL YOU IT'S ALMOST FALL.

I saw two large Orb Weaver webs yesterday, and typically the Orb Weavers don't come out and get active much until autumn is on the way. It's one of the signs I've learned to recognize that mean cooler weather is coming. I just hope it cools off sooner than it did last year, but with climate change and such I'm not getting my hopes up. But I'd like it to cool off enough to run a 5k at racing pace before the 10k this October - I did one on the treadmill but outside is much different and I'd like to know what my actual speed is, instead of my speed with no wind resistance and a road that moves for me.

This is also the time of year for us (Florida) when hurricane season is at its worst - usually. The last two years we've had some bad storms around this time but, fingers crossed, everything looks quiet right now. There's a wave way out in the Atlantic but the models have it going up towards Bermuda and hopefully that's what happens. 
pshaw_raven: (Antlered Owl)
It's been a very interesting couple of days at Chez P'shaw. My close neighbors on Monday had their house (technically trailer) torn down. We'd seen them working on the back part of their property lately, and a lot of crap being put to the road, which annoys me to no end because the trash pickup won't take it and it just sits there being a trashy eyesore. But I'd just finished a run on the treadmill and was making a smoothie when I started hearing loud crunching and crashing, and went to go see what was up. Then yesterday they sorted the wood, metal, and I-beams and hauled a lot of stuff off.

They still have their garden and a shed, so I'm tentatively assuming they plan to build something new. The old place was really in serious disrepair so it might have become easier and less expensive to just start over than to try to fix up the existing structure.

Anyway the loss of their hummingbird feeders means it's Hummer City at my place! YAY HUMMINGBIRDS. We have three feeders up and could probably support a fourth. The feeder on the back deck is very interesting, as we get to see the behavior of mated pairs because it offers more spots to perch. Yesterday afternoon I got to watch the male displaying for the female, which was really cool. When it comes to the front yard feeders I normally just see territorial battles where this one male tries to defend both of them from other birds.

It's also rained a lot - did any other Florida peeps get drenched? It rained over two inches here in the last 72 hours. Just over an inch of that fell yesterday and last night. My garden's pretty happy about it though.

The major problem is the road. Between all the rain and the big trucks coming to work next door the road is a nightmare. There's a washout about half a mile up from us that's a "car eater." The road is completely gone and the culvert is caved in, it's probably three feet deep and hard to see unless you're used to this place and are watching for things to dodge. I went around it yesterday but unless the neighborhood agrees on something and moves pretty fast it's just going to get worse, and it'll do it quickly. Since the location effects six families we might be able to agree on something and get it done soon before getting in and out of here is an Indiana Jones thing.

Chilling

Oct. 30th, 2017 11:50 am
pshaw_raven: (Books and coffee)
 I'm sitting at the kitchen table writing this on my Chromebook. The breeze blowing through the open windows is nice and cool, and it's kind of cold in the house, maybe around 50 or 55. But it feels nice to me. I'm having some tea and eating a butter cookie.

Norwegian Christmas Butter Squares -  Not sure what's particularly Norwegian or Christmas-y about them but they're freaking amazing. Someone else described these as being like the Platonic ideal of sugar cookies, but in bar form. That's pretty accurate. I don't think I've baked a better cookie in a long time. The recipe calls for doing the mixing by hand, but I did hand mixing for almost twenty years and it's not all that. If you've got a stand mixer, put it to work. Save your arms. But you will need to spread the dough into the pan by hand.

And since Fox and I are now using the exact same model of Chromebook, we've decided to get stickers to differentiate them. Or at least, I am going to. I found this on RedBubble and it's perfect. Yes, there's a Hannibal reference. :D I am really enjoying having a device that just works, and that allows me to use real websites instead of getting mobile versions or redirected to a page telling me to download the app. Plus being able to type normally is great.


Once I finish my tea it'll be time to get back to my usual Monday chores. Hmm.
pshaw_raven: (Ace Pride)
 I finally upgraded to a Chromebook. It's a refurbished one but it works perfectly well, and I'm very happy with it. It beats the hell out of my Android tablet. I'm keeping the tablet, though I stripped a lot of the apps off it, as a kitchen device. I can use Chrome and a few other things for recipes, and since it has a cover that allows it to sit up, and there's a dedicated surge protection outlet with a USB port next to the stove, I figured why not.
It's finally cooling off here, so I can go outside like a normal human and not die. I've been doing most of my training runs outside for the last two weeks. I did ten miles yesterday but I don't have anything scheduled for today, so I think I'm going to walk on the treadmill and listen to podcasts. The windows are mostly all open, except for one or two with loose screens that Feisal pushes on. He actually pushed one out a couple of days ago and was sitting on the top deck meowing to come back inside. Outside is scary! Yes, you big doofus, it is. Anyway we're due to get down to 39 tonight, which I find cozy but Fox, being a Florida native, will likely freeze to death.
Health and weight loss stuff continues to slowly but steadily improve. I've seen resting heart rates of 47 in the last couple of weeks, which pleases me immensely. I even got to the point where I had to start halving my blood pressure medication because every time I stood up I nearly passed out. I should really make a doctor appointment about the BP meds, and about my bum shoulder which hurts all the damn time now. Hopefully he can set me up with a physical therapist. Although I noticed if I do a couple of sets of arm raises the pain lessens. It's just annoying to not have the full range of motion on that side.
I need to throw some chicken into the slow cooker in a minute here. I'm making a sort of lazy person's spinach and mushroom alfredo. My meal prep later this week is lentil and brown rice burrito filling. I'm still on a lentil kick, but I love lentils. I just had a bowl for breakfast. The burrito filling recipe makes enough for eight, so I may freeze half right off. I may even do it in single-serving portions if I have enough of those little Tupperware things clean. It's not today's problem, though.

pshaw_raven: (Spirited Away)
Over the last four days, we've received 4.52" rain. That's more than we've gotten all year, total, and if Florida stays true to form, summer will continue being rainy, or at least I hope it will. The wildfire situation was getting scary. When you're down to warning people about tossing cigarette butts, you know everything is tinder-dry and can go up at the least thing.

So yesterday I got my follow up scan and ultrasound, but they don't seem to have any brainiacs on staff at the imaging place, and said they'd have a radiologist read it, then send the results to my doctor. So I'm the last person in this chain who gets to find out what's going on. And if my boob didn't hurt before, it does now, though that's partly the ultrasound and partly psychosomatic. Other anxiety-provoking elements are becoming less of a perceived threat so I'm finally able to do things like, oh you know. Sleep through the night and wake up refreshed. Eat food. Be productive instead of nervously poking at the internet all day.

I mean, obviously we're all still in a hell of a mess that's only getting worse as each day passes. But it's good to be able to function.

Like this morning, I slept through my Fitbit alarm and woke up at 8. You have to push the button in it twice to dismiss the alarm, so I obviously did this in my sleep. All my good habits have gone by the wayside, so I declare today an Official Respawn. Today I'm going to get a three mile run, do a simplified strength training routine (since I haven't done it much in the last few weeks and don't want to hurt myself), and do some meal prep so we have breakfasts and maybe some lunch for me, though I still have tuna & white beans in the fridge. I can't change what the test results will be, no matter how much my Anxiety Brain says that if I just concentrate hard enough on the worst possible outcome, it might not happen. And then it finds a way to make the worst outcome even worse.

A few weeks ago, I read an interesting short article about some anxiety research, and I wish I'd followed up and found the study. Anyway, this person was saying that we know that anxiety disorders spring from a certain way your brain is hard-coded from birth. It can't make the fine distinction between something benign and something that is a threat, so it tends to respond to everything as a threat. (This is just very broad strokes.) They found that this is partly true, but there's also a strong nurture component. Childhood experiences and interactions have to potential to either dial back these responses, or exacerbate them. Getting beyond infancy, bad experiences in starting school have to power to start writing the "everything will kill you" program some of us run on.

Tomorrow Fox and I may head to Palatka (voluntarily) to the Blue Crab Festival. I don't think I've been to this since I first moved here and we went with Kitty. Anyway, it'll be a fun opportunity to stuff myself stupid with crabmeat.

Also out my bedroom window I can see a ground dove and blue jay hunting bugs. Last weekend we ground out some tree stumps and this weekend we may try to get the concrete pilings in for the back deck. Not sure how that's going to go, weather-wise, but we may have clear skies for a little while.

I need to get my custom mood theme loaded, and I probably need some angry userpics. I didn't use a lot of my old LJ pics - I have some, but a lot of it feels like its from a different era and doesn't really fit anymore.

pshaw_raven: (Hell of a Butler)
I'm mostly done with the "stuff" I do around the house every day, so I've got several personal things to catch up on. I'd like to get some yoga in this afternoon and get back to drawing this evening. I keep saying I'm going to work on art and I keep not doing it. I also have a thing to finish reading - it's a roleplay chat log, and it's been edited so that it reads more like a story, but it's amazingly long. Like it makes me wonder how long it took to actually play all of the story out. So I think I'll set things up as reading - yoga - dinner - evening chores - art - nighttime wind-down for bed.

I ordered more Zox. *hangs head in shame* Well, I'd budgeted for a consolation order if I didn't make the Mystery Stash drawing, so it's not like I'm digging coins out of the couch cushions. Everything has already shipped, too, which in my opinion is blinding speed. They're shipping out of California, so I have to remember that it'll be late this afternoon for me before their postal person picks the packages up, and sometime tonight they'll start moving through the system. Once they leave the Santa Clarita PO they'll take about three days to arrive in Jacksonville, then weather cooperating, they'll be in my grubby little claws the next day. I just wonder if there's someone at my bank looking at the transactions and thinking, "WTF."

And yes, I'm kind of a postal nerd. LOL

I wish it would rain. I was looking at a drought map for Florida and we're so dry right now. And all the wildfires have me worried. It just takes one idiot not watching their trash pile or doing something else dumb. Summer is supposed to be rainy, but I don't see anything out there that might bring some moisture. Of course, I'll be regretting these words if we get another hurricane. We need rain, but not that badly.

Oh yeah, I need to make dough for garlic knots.

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