pshaw_raven: (Hiroshi Nagai - palm trees)
This post is mostly me talking to myself about writing/world building, so feel free to skip if you're not interested.

I think I can upcycle most of what I wrote for my first playthrough of Over The Mountain into stuff for St. Felix. While I have some locations and things mapped out, the list of locations in OTM will really help flesh the entire county out and I may just reuse names and stuff.

One brainstorm during weight lifting - the main character's secret talent or skill. Many years ago I read this interesting idea for making an iPod tarot deck. It would have required someone to remember which song was for which card for an entire deck, which seems like it would tax almost anyone's memory. But what if someone were to use a digital music library and the shuffle function, but they have the ability to influence which songs come up so as to create an oracle? The character is a DJ (here I can use my Void AM playlists) with an extensive knowledge of music (here is where she can collect old records or CDs, etc) and can use that ability to try to help people or solve problems/mysteries/etc.

Locating the story in St Felix also allows me to fully embrace Florida Gothic.

I wish this storm would pass on through so I can take a shower. I just don't want to be trying to wash off when the power goes out and I lose hot water. I'm ready to map out the first few days of my tale. But we also just had a couple of lightning strikes not even two miles south of here.
pshaw_raven: (Lightning)
We're about to go run some small errands and try to get back ahead of the line of storms coming our way. This thing has been spawning tornadoes, and we've been getting emails from NWS-Jax since Friday. And here it comes. The weather emergency alarm just went off. But I also want an iced mocha latte.

Around here, Little Treat Culture is alive and well.

I'm going to try to get my next day of Over the Mountain finished this afternoon. I was also thinking that particular format might be a good way to flesh out St. Felix, though I hate to abandon the first storyline. IDK, what do y'all think? (St. Felix being the fictional Florida town I sometimes write and draw comics about, and where my 'radio station' WFLX-AM is located.)

Off Topic, but Rick Astley did a really good cover of "Pink Pony CLub." Check it out here. Is this a rickroll?

I think I'm going to go outside and look at the paving work we got done yesterday. We laid down two crossing paths that will go between the four raised beds and hopefully keep more of the weeds down. Once we've built the bed frames and put them in, we'll lay another set of paths around the outside, though we might have to buy bricks. We've almost run through all the old bricks we had.
pshaw_raven: (Books and coffee)
File Under: This never happens

I received a used book in the mail today and popped that bad boy open to find a bunch of hand-written (in pencil) notes, along with a name in the front. I was enjoying the tone of the notes, and I was looking forward to reading this book with my anonymous "new friend."

I just did a quick search and she's a published author. ROFL. I'm about to drop her an email about her used book, and probably pick up a copy of her own published work.

This never usually happens. I'll search a name inside a cover and get nothing at all, or obituaries, or a Facebook page that's been inactive since 2017.

Update: SHE EMAILED ME BACK
This is so cool. She's very nice, too. I'll be getting a copy of her book probably Monday (it shipped from Hilton Head) and I'm looking forward to it! She said she DNF'd the book - it had good ideas but got pretty dense after a while, and she donated it, assuming that if she needed it, "it would come back to her." And it did.

Today I learned that Serendipity isn't just an adorable story about a baby sea monster.
pshaw_raven: (X-Ray Forest)
This morning I was reading Sahil Bloom's The 5 Types of Wealth (it's a book club pick) and Mr Bloom floated an interesting idea. I am not an entrepreneur or anything, and I have never had any ambition to change the world, aside from occasionally wanting to yell at people to stop being stupid. The general idea is that you have obvious monetary wealth, but also social, time, and physical wealth. If you have a massive net worth but never see your kids, you've got some obvious problems. But anyway, that wasn't the bit that got my attention.

He takes the idea of ikigai - an idea that started getting popular in 2015 or so - and made a simple, obvious adjustment to it. Normally it's a sweet spot of what you love to do, what you're good at, what the world needs, and what you can get paid for. In my case that looks less like a tidy Venn diagram and more like several unaffiliated blobs. All Sahil did was remove "what you can get paid for." Unless someone's been holding out on me, I can't get paid for sitting around in my pajamas and farting.

Just taking out that one element made the whole idea click. It was probably worth getting the book just for that nudge. I enjoy writing and I'm told I'm good at it, but what did I want to DO with it? At the moment, aside from what little I share here, on Pillowfort, or what I send to folks through Google Docs, no one much sees my work and I don't send it in anywhere.

Depending on how finances shake out this year ... kinda thinking about signing up for some creative writing courses or something similar.
pshaw_raven: (Purple Gryphon)
I haven't updated Over The Mountain in a few weeks because I not only hit a busy time in life, but I was also up against a species of writer's block. The same character shows up twice in one day, and she has items both times, AND one of the encounters is a side quest to find a lost item.

Just playing the game straight through is fun, but I may go back and rewrite some entries later to make the story make more sense. I may end up with Chekhov's Entire Armory. I rewrote my character's profile, making her special ability "finding lost things," though using that power is exhausting and I'm self-imposing an interaction penalty on the next day's rolls. The game suggests you have a collection that you can occasionally show off to get positive interactions, and I've made mine jewelry.

While trying to think up some of these items, I came up with some silly items, just for fun, that are more at home in a traditional fantasy RPG setting, but I'm sharing them here for laughs.
  • Boots of Blistering Speed - doubles the wearer's movement speed when the wearer is on fire.
  • Bag of Bobcats - looks like a normal traveler's bag but can be used to unleash a swarm of bobcats. Also not useful for storing anything, because whatever you take out of the bag is a bobcat. If you're the kind of person who likes precision, roll a d100 for how many bobcats, or two d6 for 11 - 66 cats.
  • Potion of Insect Controlling - allows you to speak to and command one (1) insect, which could actually be pretty useful in the right circumstances.
  • Potion of Uncomfortable Wakefulness - it's a Jolt Cola - increased movement speed and perception but roll a 1d6 for how many health points you'll lose.
  • Potion Helmet - holds two potions and allows you to consume them without using an action, +1 armor but also -5 charisma because you look like a dork.

It rained off and on all night, a welcome sound. The road has been getting really badly rutted out in places, and without rain to help pack the sand down, the churned up sand just gets soft and fluffy. The dickhole who rides around on an ATV at night isn't helping, either. The digital weather station says .13" since midnight and I haven't looked at the standard gauge yet, my reading time is eight a.m.

While we're away at Marathon Weekend it's supposed to get freezing cold here, so now I have to try to figure out what to do about my citrus trees. I don't think I can leave them covered the entire time we're gone, but I also don't want to impose on Jamie's good will by asking her to cover them. And the younger trees may not withstand the cold as well. The yuzu is finally starting to come back healthy, and the key lime is actually giving some fruit, and I'd hate to lose all the money and work.
pshaw_raven: (Stormy Weather)
We're keeping an eye on this tropical system down in the Caribbean right now. Last night it was expected to develop into a category three storm within two days which is terrifyingly fast. It should be making landfall Thursday around the Big Bend area, but obviously the track can and will change. We're making some preliminary preparations right now and by tomorrow morning I'll know if I need to go fight crowds in town for a more extensive supply run. As it is, we may simply have a long power outage. And Waffle House is still open, LOL.

I'm trying to remember now - why did I want my stories to be in the form of comics? Probably because I like comics and I like to draw, but writing was always my strongest point. I'm a slow, meticulous artist, which doesn't allow me knock out pages of comics easily and has me agonizing over poses all day. The thing I'm working on right now, Lora, for example, has something like another thirty pages to go? I forget how many rough pages I laid out. And I cut a bunch of stuff from the story to make the comic something I might be able to finish before I die.

So, why don't I just write? If it needs a picture, I can do some illustrations or short comics. Actually I like doing short comics - around five to ten pages.

Why not write? I'm an English major who focused on literary criticism. I know how a story goes together. I know how world building works. I know where my towel is. People have said they like my art, yes, but I've had people put down a piece of writing I did and say, "Wow, that's really great." So ... why am I not writing?

I don't have a good answer for that aside from the fact that I kind of always wanted to be a cartoonist, but I'm now having to admit that my style of art is just not well suited to it. Of course that doesn't solve the problem of Lora being unfinished, but it makes future projects feel SO much less daunting.

I started re-reading some Gene Wolfe novels, and I suppose that helped nudge me. Every writer has that one author who makes you strive to be a better writer yourself, whether that's Gene Wolfe, Patrick O'Brien, or Ursula LeGuin. I just haven't been reading as much lately. My brain sometimes feels too wrapped in fog to do much of anything intellectual. Hopefully the changing weather will help - summer is just something to be endured, white-knuckling your way through the heat until one morning, the thermometer says 66, and you go outside and you can breathe. Or perhaps that's just me, a person who takes the Florida license plates that say "Endless Summer" as some sort of threat. Always summer! Always summer and never Halloween.
pshaw_raven: (Autumn Leaves)
Yesterday, my virtual half marathon went pretty well. I knew dehydration was going to be an issue, so I drove into town and stashed a water bottle under some bushes right at about the turnaround point, and that helped immensely. I still got dehydrated and crashed out, but this time at mile 11, rather than mile 7. So I didn't quite finish in the time I'd hoped for, but I was not honestly expecting to. 2:17:43 is pretty good, though.

Fox talked me into getting a hydration vest similar to his. Well, exactly like his, except smaller, for me. So that will allow me to haul along two 20 ounce bottles of water or electrolyte drink, and it has pockets for your phone, gels, and all kinds of other shit. They're UltrAspire vests, and designed more for trail/ultra runners, but they came highly recommended on r/running for people who need to carry water. In my case it was definitely dehydration rather than glycogen depletion - I've been running fasted and working on my fat adaptation all spring and summer. Yesterday, what I was feeling was increased heart rate, no saliva, and brain fog. My legs and everything felt fine. I just needed salts. I bought some packets of "Liquid IV" powder to mix up, and a couple of Gatorade Zeros, since I'm not sure what I'll like and what will work best for me. I'm trying to avoid too much sugar, though I think a little won't hurt.

I get to try it out this coming Sunday, since I have a two-hour run scheduled. I'll probably continue driving to the state park and leaving the truck there, then running up the sidewalk towards town. The military reservation is great, but while we're still in the rainy season, the first half of the trail is a total slog through a bunch of sandy mud. Plus, doing some of my running on pavement gets me ready to race on pavement.

I received my Pilot Metropolitan pen and I love it. The balance is nice and it should write very smoothly once I change the ink cartridge. I forgot that you shouldn't bother using the ink that the pen comes with, because it's often old and gunky. I've spent most of 2021 being very careful about my spending and saving, so of course I've blown it out this past week. I bought a couple of Leuchttrum 1917 journals, one in metallic copper that will be my daily commonplace book, and another in "sagebrush," which will be my new reading journal. The notebook I've been keeping my reading journal in is some unknown quantity from Target that I bought back in maybe 2002. It's okay, but as I think I mentioned before, I'm ready to start having nice notebooks and good writing supplies. It will take a while to copy all the entries, but it will be worth it to have a reading journal I wouldn't mind other people seeing. And then to top it off, I found a website out of Brooklyn that has the LAMY Safari pen I've been after, and they were running a sale, so I just ordered that pen, plus a box of ink.

I think I'm done for now, but I just wanted to have both a fine nib and medium nib pen, and I figured with the new notebooks, I should be content for a while. Unless Leuchttrum comes out with some limited edition color I simply must have, I can probably wait around and just order a couple of notebooks from them every three or four months. I got into a bad habit when Kitty was alive of buying any and every notebook that caught my eye. She was pretty indiscriminate about them - which is perfectly fine, everyone has their preferences. But I've found that if I'm writing in something with shitty paper and a terrible binding, it doesn't matter how pretty the cover is, I hate it.

I've got about seven more weeks until the Wine & Dine half marathon, so here's hoping that I can actually hit my goal there. That's over a month of additional training, plus working out my hydration and nutrition strategy.
pshaw_raven: (Meditating Skeleton)
It's not a ton of money, but I'm waffling on buying a fountain pen. I think I'm going to. It's a Pilot Metropolitan, and I've had Pilot pens and pencils in the past, and they've been very good. I had fountain pens all through college. Inexpensive ones, obviously, but they served me well. Later I got a Rotring fountain pen as a gift, but then lost track of it later. That doesn't bother me since it was from ex-husband and I'd prefer not to have his shit around. But I do still have a Rotring drafting pencil.

The drafting pencil is a little heavier than I like for sketching, so I tend to use (wait for it) Pilot mechanical pencils! I've still got a pastel green one I bought in college, but I also have two I bought in Japan that are a tad heavier but not as much as the Rotring.

Anyway, I started thinking the other day that I needed to buy a new pack of pens. Then I thought, I'm tired of buying pens and then tossing them out when they're used up. I should go back to a fountain pen, because even though I have to buy cartridges and throw them out later, it seems less wasteful. It's also cheaper to buy a 12-pack of Pilot branded ink cartridges than to buy a 12-pack of decent quality gel pens at Walmart. I don't know if I can get the cartridges locally or if I'll need to buy them online, but it seems like the kind of thing any of the big box office supply stores would carry.

I'm not going big on this purchase because I don't write longhand as much anymore. My reading journal, daily journal, and some sketching is about it. I don't even have anyone to write letters to anymore. But it would be nice to have a good pen again.
pshaw_raven: (Buddha)
I keep coming back here and apologizing for not posting as much. Now that I realize I'm doing it I feel a bit foolish. But, here I am!

I mentioned that I was writing more lately, basically developing stories for my comic, Muna. That's actually going quite well, but the story that's more ready to go isn't the one I expected to make so much progress with, where Feather & Bone is coming along more slowly. The story I think I'm going to go ahead and start has no name yet, and since I'm terrible at giving things names and titles I guess I'll just find something to crib from Bob Dylan. I mean, if you need something that makes you sound smart, you steal it from either Dylan or Shakespeare.

We canceled an upcoming Disney trip for August. We don't really believe it's a good idea for us or anyone else to go, and since we're still somewhat convinced we've both had Covid 19 already and can't be sure we wouldn't be spreading it, it feels very dishonest and uncaring to go gallivanting around at a theme park. Since it'll be my birthday, I'll probably make cake here at home. I'm kind of leaning to a vanilla cake with orange frosting for a Dream Bar or Push-Pop type flavor, or the matcha butter-cream frosting I already know is amazing but make a lemon or yuzu flavored cake.

We have also been discussing it off an on for a few months, but today I went ahead and ordered myself a Japanese floor futon. I have a cover I can use, so I just bought the mattress itself, and will probably put it on top of a memory foam pad I already own. I'm just tired of my regular Western mattress. It squeaks when it rubs against the wall, and it was never particularly comfortable since it was like a guest room mattress that Fox and Kitty bought at BJ's. There's a reason I have the thickest foam pad on the market.

I'm also just having one of my phases where I want to get rid of things. I feel like I have too much STUFF. So I may take another pass through the house and look at discarding/donating again, if donation centers will take things right now. I found myself sort of resisting the idea beacuse, "Well, I LIKE this stuff." Oh yeah? When was the last time you took it out and looked at it, or did anything with it? Probably the last time you tidied up. If that's the case then I strongly suggest (to myself) that you consider letting it go.

I don't want to just embrace minimalism for its own sake, or as an ego stroking thing of "look how much stuff I don't need." I think it becomes a real trap for some people, and they wind up living with just a backpack's worth of items not because they travel a lot, but because they're invested in this image of themselves as Minimalists. But as I mentioned in the above paragraph ... if I haven't used it or even looked at it since this time last year, I probably don't really need it.
pshaw_raven: (Books and coffee)
- The Library Book - I finished up this volume by Susan Orlean recently. I enjoyed it, but I realize it's not the kind of writing everyone is going to like. Orlean begins with the Los Angeles Central Library fire that destroyed much of the collection and part of the building in April 1986. The fire occurred the same day that news was beginning to trickle out of the Soviet Union and neighboring countries about a nuclear incident at Chernobyl, and that story almost entirely eclipsed the library fire outside of L.A.
The book swings back and forth between the fire and its aftermath, the history of the Los Angeles Library, about libraries in general, biography, and some autobiography. I felt that using the fire as a cord to hang all the other stories from worked quite well. But some readers might find it disjointed, or that Orlean puts herself too much in the story. I gave it five stars on Goodreads, and it's a good semi-light read. It was hard, as an avid reader, book lover, and former library worker, to read about the fire and destruction and all the materials that were lost. But the tone of the book overall was a positive, hopeful one. And without going too much into current politics, it reminds you that despite having Google, we need libraries now more than ever.

- I filled up another journal and started a fresh one. When I went to shelve the finished one I realized I've filled six journals so far.
weird flex but okay

I've managed to pick up a lot of beneficial habits over the past few years and keeping a written, private journal is definitely one of the better ones. I think I might have talked about it before, but my journals are more like commonplace books in that they aren't strictly about my day and my personal thoughts, but have quotes, passages from books I'm reading, occasionally pictures or maps, and some of my fictional work.

So actually, even though I'll keep writing it out longhand, I'm considering starting a "world building" tag here. I'm not going to make it a friend-restricted thing or make people do anything extra if they want to see it, but I'll have the entries tagged so you can search for/skip them depending on interest levels.

- In my Anxiety Closet this month, doctor visits! I made a checkup appointment for next week and I'm waffling about asking to get my bloodwork done early so the doctor can discuss it with me at the appointment. My liver enzyme levels have been high the last couple of years, but each year is lower than the previous one, but he still keeps bugging me for a liver ultrasound, which I obviously have not done. I'm also anxious about my blood glucose and A1C because ... because me.
See, last year Fox had the idea that if we did blood sugar testing it might help with eating and fueling for long runs. I thought that was an excellent idea. Until I started testing my sugars and routinely getting high readings, no matter when, no matter what, all the time. Like 120s and 130s when I get up in the morning.
Fox says that my response to food isn't remotely like an actual diabetic's in that I don't experience the spikes and crashes, I can eat high-sugar foods without feeling exceptionally good or bad, and I don't have the awful dietary habits that most prediabetics or type-2 diabetics have. That doesn't stop me from worrying about it though. I mean, it's entirely possible the meter is calibrated wrong but the sheer amount of constant, high-level anxiety it was provoking made me stop doing the readings. I'd cut out all the carbs and sugars I could and still get stupid-high readings, so I was convinced I was going to die at any moment. So that anxiety is back now, whee fun.

Because, anxiety.

- I hope this embeds properly.

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