Good Medicine

[pshaw_raven]

My doctor's appointment went pretty well yesterday and he sent in the prescription refills. I just checked the website and it says "dispensing," and I signed up for email alerts so that I'll know when they ship. I remember from doing this for Kitty that once they actually ship your meds the package gets here in a few days, so here's hoping. Ugh, forget everything I said optimistically about being off anxiety medication - this is the worst. I barely slept last night, I can't focus on anything and yet I'm worried about everything, ever, everywhere. Just saying, "My stomach hurts" doesn't convey the intestinal churning I'm dealing with. I couldn't even drink my coffee this morning, and I love coffee. I feel genuinely, 100%, gold-standard awful.

And then there's that stupid fucking thing going around FB ... you may have seen it. Some "holistic psychiatrist" (is that like a holistic detective?) has said it's anti-feminist to take prescriptions. It's denying your body's "innate wisdom and power to heal itself" or some other bullshit. In my case not taking meds is mostly uncomfortable and counter-productive. For other people it could be downright deadly. It bothers me to no end that people can just put things like that out there and it gets passed around, gains traction, and people trust her because she's got an "MD" after her name when she's really just a snake oil peddler. 

When your entire life has been shaped and made possible by modern medicine and you end up defining yourself by your rejection of said science and medicine, you're the poster child for privilege.


Now if you'll excuse me I have hangnails to chew and a three-foot area of carpet to pace around on.

Comments

[dorchadas]

That sounds awful. I dealt with something similar a year and a half ago (anxious all the time, constant stomach-churning pain, threw away most of my breakfast every day for a month) and it was terrible, but fortunately it was only that bad briefly. I hope your meds arrive soon and help!

[pshaw_raven]

Thanks :) I wish this had been a short term thing, but sometimes anxiety is hard-wired. They even found that it can arise from a combo of being predisposed and early childhood environment. Not to be too nice about it, your parents can make you have permanent, lifelong anxiety.

[october_rain]

Stomach pain is such torture, as well as overwhelming anxiety. I've suffered from both for a long while, even going through tons of tests and doctors over the years. I hope you'll find the right meds that will relief your pain. I know what you mean by it being more than just "my stomach hurts". :/

[pshaw_raven]

Usually the stomach pain will go away once the mental upset is under control. But yeah, it's so hard to pin those things down, if you manage to get a doctor who even believes you.