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Nov. 22nd, 2020 03:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pshaw_ravenI really ought to get a little more diligent about posting here. But when there isn't a lot going on it's hard to remember to do it.
Last weekend we packed up and went on a bike ride at Gold Head Branch. It's just a few miles up the road, so if I were feeling full of myself I could bike up there and then ride around in the park. As it was, on a weekend there were a lot of trucks and campers, some of which were going pretty fast, so I was nervous about vehicle traffic. Going on a weekday might be a little less nerve wracking. We saw either several woodpeckers, or the same woodpecker several times. Down by Little Lake Johnson there was a Great Blue Heron and a couple of Sandhill Cranes. There was even a single, bitchy Crow that just sat around yelling about something. I didn't have any food to try to tempt it to come be friends.
And that was our one major failing - we didn't pack any snacks or anything, and we both got kind of wiped out. Happily we weren't far from home.
This afternoon I am making some cake in advance. We don't really celebrate Thanksgiving so much as take the opportunity to do massive amounts of cooking and then bank the leftovers. Normally we eat - a little more than normal but not "I need my Eating Pants" quantities - and watch a Disney movie I haven't seen. Last year we watched Wreck It Ralph, and this year I'm not sure what we'll watch. I'd like a throwback night to see either The Rescuers or The Aristocats.
Gaming is going well - I finished Untitled Goose Game and received the "To Do (As Well)" list, which you can do for achievements and the sheer joy of ruining peoples' days. I'd already done a few ahead of time just by my tendency to mess around with things in-game. If I do this, what will happen? Anyway, I'm stuck on a very late-game boss in Hollow Knight, and while I know I'm almost at the end, I did look up the various endings, but trying to not spoil things for myself too much. I know what I want to do for this run, but I gotta get past this one guy first. And because I'm a huge sucker, Team Cherry put out some new merch and I bought myself a long-sleeved t-shirt. But it had charm notches on the sleeves. CHARM NOTCHES. So yes I am a huge dork, why do you ask.
OTOH anyone who says, "Hey, Hollow Knight!" gets to either make a new friend, or have a really uncomfortable and intense conversation about Hallownest lore and then start avoiding me.
It's raining here. I'm tired a lot. I ran eight miles today but it was hard fought and now I just want to go to bed. I don't know why.
Fox is calling his parents and honestly ... sometimes I wish I could just call my mom and chat. Without all the weight of judgement and everything. I know I didn't turn out successful by any normal standard, but can't you at least be happy that I'm happy? Yeah, didn't think so. It feels a little unfair, how so many people have almost normal relationships with their parents, and I feel like I have to always be ready for a fight.
The bear hasn't been back in a while. I saw tracks where she checked out the new shed, but she hasn't really been hanging around our yard as much. I guess when there's no food there's no reason to be here. I just wish other people out here would take it as seriously. That bear is going to get shot.
Last weekend we packed up and went on a bike ride at Gold Head Branch. It's just a few miles up the road, so if I were feeling full of myself I could bike up there and then ride around in the park. As it was, on a weekend there were a lot of trucks and campers, some of which were going pretty fast, so I was nervous about vehicle traffic. Going on a weekday might be a little less nerve wracking. We saw either several woodpeckers, or the same woodpecker several times. Down by Little Lake Johnson there was a Great Blue Heron and a couple of Sandhill Cranes. There was even a single, bitchy Crow that just sat around yelling about something. I didn't have any food to try to tempt it to come be friends.
And that was our one major failing - we didn't pack any snacks or anything, and we both got kind of wiped out. Happily we weren't far from home.
This afternoon I am making some cake in advance. We don't really celebrate Thanksgiving so much as take the opportunity to do massive amounts of cooking and then bank the leftovers. Normally we eat - a little more than normal but not "I need my Eating Pants" quantities - and watch a Disney movie I haven't seen. Last year we watched Wreck It Ralph, and this year I'm not sure what we'll watch. I'd like a throwback night to see either The Rescuers or The Aristocats.
Gaming is going well - I finished Untitled Goose Game and received the "To Do (As Well)" list, which you can do for achievements and the sheer joy of ruining peoples' days. I'd already done a few ahead of time just by my tendency to mess around with things in-game. If I do this, what will happen? Anyway, I'm stuck on a very late-game boss in Hollow Knight, and while I know I'm almost at the end, I did look up the various endings, but trying to not spoil things for myself too much. I know what I want to do for this run, but I gotta get past this one guy first. And because I'm a huge sucker, Team Cherry put out some new merch and I bought myself a long-sleeved t-shirt. But it had charm notches on the sleeves. CHARM NOTCHES. So yes I am a huge dork, why do you ask.
OTOH anyone who says, "Hey, Hollow Knight!" gets to either make a new friend, or have a really uncomfortable and intense conversation about Hallownest lore and then start avoiding me.
It's raining here. I'm tired a lot. I ran eight miles today but it was hard fought and now I just want to go to bed. I don't know why.
Fox is calling his parents and honestly ... sometimes I wish I could just call my mom and chat. Without all the weight of judgement and everything. I know I didn't turn out successful by any normal standard, but can't you at least be happy that I'm happy? Yeah, didn't think so. It feels a little unfair, how so many people have almost normal relationships with their parents, and I feel like I have to always be ready for a fight.
The bear hasn't been back in a while. I saw tracks where she checked out the new shed, but she hasn't really been hanging around our yard as much. I guess when there's no food there's no reason to be here. I just wish other people out here would take it as seriously. That bear is going to get shot.
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Date: 2020-11-24 07:54 pm (UTC)Sometimes it's difficult for parents to let go of expectations of their offspring. My dad always accepted me but he came from a different place than my mom did. It wasn't until recently that she finally accepted that I wasn't successful & never got a college degree. Another thing for her was, she wanted better for me than the females in her family, which I completely understand. We each have our own path. And it basically comes down to, as you said, being content with our own lives. I'm glad you are :) Wanting an easier relationship with your mother is normal. Maybe one day it will happen. I waited nearly 50 years. It's not perfect but I'll take it.
:hugs: