No Spoons, Only Dice
Oct. 22nd, 2024 09:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pshaw_ravenI should finish up the yard today while it's overcast but I would much rather be writing. Alas.
I had to knock down a few Orb Weaver webs, but I left a couple that weren't directly at face level. One is a big, BIG girl who's built a web in between the radio tower guy lines. There's another that has built under the camper shed, between the camper roof and the rafters. Yesterday I picked up four wheelbarrow loads of fallen sticks and branches before mowing, and today all I really need to do is push-mow around the septic tank mound and do some weed whacking around the sides of the house.
I have my routine doctor appointment tomorrow, and I don't feel like fielding his questions about my other health and wellness stuff. Yes I got that liver thing checked out - the one that turned out to be nothing. But I haven't gotten a mammogram, a pap smear, a dental appointment, or anything else, because I don't have the mental spoons to do this shit. I can tell I'm not going to age well because my tolerance for medical anything is so extremely low that twice-yearly wellness checkups exhaust me to the point of wanting to go live in the woods for six months. OH WAIT I DO LIVE IN THE WOODS
Sorry - I'm just already fed up with peopling today and I haven't even done tomorrow yet. But Fox found his dice bag and lent me a d6, and I found a deck of playing cards, so I'm good to do a quick game of Wires in the Woods. That'll be my reward for doing my stuff today. Fox also suggested I buy a set of my own dice, as the ones he has are from when they used to have regular D&D nights, and some were specifically Kitty's, so I should have my own instead of hand-me-downs. While the Florida Mann set is funny, I found one called Cat's Meow that suits me much better. But I will also likely buy the Rick Roll d20 and keep it on my desk as a fidget toy.
Ugh, it's already past nine. I gotta get moving.
I had to knock down a few Orb Weaver webs, but I left a couple that weren't directly at face level. One is a big, BIG girl who's built a web in between the radio tower guy lines. There's another that has built under the camper shed, between the camper roof and the rafters. Yesterday I picked up four wheelbarrow loads of fallen sticks and branches before mowing, and today all I really need to do is push-mow around the septic tank mound and do some weed whacking around the sides of the house.
I have my routine doctor appointment tomorrow, and I don't feel like fielding his questions about my other health and wellness stuff. Yes I got that liver thing checked out - the one that turned out to be nothing. But I haven't gotten a mammogram, a pap smear, a dental appointment, or anything else, because I don't have the mental spoons to do this shit. I can tell I'm not going to age well because my tolerance for medical anything is so extremely low that twice-yearly wellness checkups exhaust me to the point of wanting to go live in the woods for six months. OH WAIT I DO LIVE IN THE WOODS
Sorry - I'm just already fed up with peopling today and I haven't even done tomorrow yet. But Fox found his dice bag and lent me a d6, and I found a deck of playing cards, so I'm good to do a quick game of Wires in the Woods. That'll be my reward for doing my stuff today. Fox also suggested I buy a set of my own dice, as the ones he has are from when they used to have regular D&D nights, and some were specifically Kitty's, so I should have my own instead of hand-me-downs. While the Florida Mann set is funny, I found one called Cat's Meow that suits me much better. But I will also likely buy the Rick Roll d20 and keep it on my desk as a fidget toy.
Ugh, it's already past nine. I gotta get moving.
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Date: 2024-10-23 08:33 pm (UTC)Relatable. Needing to do stuff vs wanting to then feeling some type of way because of having to do the 'needing to' things lol.
I'm so thoroughly terrified of spiders. Mentally I start rocking in a corner whenever the thought comes up.
How did your dr appointment go? So you have a male? I've filtered away from them due to past bad experiences - plus the thought of them touching me or even me being close to them in the same room does not give me warm fuzzies - however, so many people I know have a man as their primary care. There's just such a lack of choices in my area. Honestly, I've been hoping to find someone similar to an NP I had once. I've written about her before. She was just so easy to be around & I never had to put up a front with her or play the stupid games. I could blurt out things without a filter & she never judged me. Also, I was able to simply send her a message & she'd give me a script for anything. Anyway, I'd like to hear your thoughts on having a man dr. Trinity tells me her former one never even touched her & referred her out for everything. I've researched him & he actually sounds like one of the good ones - alas he doesn't accept my insurance otherwise I would've picked him.
I put off getting a mammogram for several years. Now it's biting me in the butt. The NP I was referred to seemed ok but I think she's just too busy. Her 'support staff' is problematic & I'm really not keen on the hospital network she's with. I'm currently battling that whole process now opting to have the repeat done within my hospital network then hoping my sorry excuse for a PCM will send over the results like she did the first time. After that, I'll get to start this wheel of frustration all over again in the new year because my insurance network is changing thus my need to pick yet another PCM. Let's not even get me started on the whole avoiding taking a statin for my supposed high cholesterol yet the cardiologist saying I don't need to.
Next year is also my lovely 5 yr well woman. Evidently, I've become uberly sensitive up in that nether region, so that's going to be all types of exciting. I need to also find a network GYN. So much fun, I can hardly stand it!
This is precisely why I dislike going to the dr & why up to this point I've actually avoided it. However, I found out the hard way that when I actually needed to see a dr, they dropped me because I wasn't being seen every year. So I at least go for that now & try to put off the other things as long as possible. But at some point, if I keep refusing, I risk being dropped as well. Pretty soon no dr will want me as a patient. Why has this become such a scheme?? What happened to only going to the dr when we feel we need to?
Sorry for the long comment!