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A little backstory on me for the new folks: When I moved to Florida part of my new "job" was helping around the house here and dealing with medical stuff of all stripes for Kitty. This included my memorizing her social security number and date of birth so I could be her on the phone in dealing with insurance companies and doctors' offices. She had a very complex set of chronic illnesses and took an almost bewildering array of medications to keep her as functional as possible. Insurance companies are not my favorite entities to engage with, especially when they're dragging their heels on prescriptions.
So of course I'm now tangling with them over my own prescriptions. They recently decided that if I didn't switch to ordering 90-day supplies through them then they weren't going to cover me. I really like my Publix pharmacy and I fought this beak and talon but of course, they won. Today I had to contact my doctor's office to see about getting the scrips reissued, and I'll need to go see him next week. In the meantime, I have enough blood pressure medication to do, but I've been off my anxiety medication for over a week.
And ... I'm not really noticing it.
Anxiety is one of those hard-wired problems that is simply fucked-up brain chemistry. It doesn't just go away on its own. I was also pretty happy with my "crazy pills," except that I couldn't have grapefruit. I love grapefruit. But so far, I'm not experiencing a lot of physical or emotional symptoms, and I'm honestly considering telling the good doctor about this and seeing what he thinks we should do.
I never needed medication to handle my anxiety until, frankly, I was married to First Husband and I started working at one of the most incredibly stressful jobs I can conceive of. (I was a public housing site manager) First Husband didn't seem to believe in cutting people any slack and routinely did things that made my anxiety worse. Sometimes I think he did them entirely on purpose, just to make me nervous. Actually, I'm pretty sure that is precisely what he did.
The way I see it, there's a distinct possibility that I may be far enough removed from chronic stress, and well enough equipped with behavioral tricks that I may be able to stop taking anxiety meds. And start enjoying grapefruit again. Yes, I'm really fixated on citrus. I live in FLORIDA, man! I could go buy a whole entire grapefruit tree and plant it in my front yard! "Be right back, gonna go harvest breakfast."
Tomorrow is my normal errand day, and I'm planning to go out as far as Flemming Island to shop for new jeans at Target. I also received a Zox order today so I have new straps to wear. I'm leaning towards "Zen," with a grey henley, jeans, and sandals. I may also be slightly obsessed with Zox. I got my first one on April 3 and now have seven of them. I'd have more if I weren't saving up in case they release either a new Zox Box and/or a subscription service.
So I'll get in a run, clean up and go buy stuff. Normally Tuesday is also "eating out day," in that I'll pick up pizza or something, but we're both leaning towards wanting healthier things for a while. It's not the Healthiest Dish Ever, but I'm planning on making buffalo broccoli and chicken. You roast the broccoli and pan roast the chicken, then mix up a light cheese sauce with blue crumbles, flour, butter, and cayenne pepper sauce, toss it all together, and it's actually really good. A friend has described broccoli as being, "Like a toothbrush for your colon." I'll leave you with that lovely mental image!
So of course I'm now tangling with them over my own prescriptions. They recently decided that if I didn't switch to ordering 90-day supplies through them then they weren't going to cover me. I really like my Publix pharmacy and I fought this beak and talon but of course, they won. Today I had to contact my doctor's office to see about getting the scrips reissued, and I'll need to go see him next week. In the meantime, I have enough blood pressure medication to do, but I've been off my anxiety medication for over a week.
And ... I'm not really noticing it.
Anxiety is one of those hard-wired problems that is simply fucked-up brain chemistry. It doesn't just go away on its own. I was also pretty happy with my "crazy pills," except that I couldn't have grapefruit. I love grapefruit. But so far, I'm not experiencing a lot of physical or emotional symptoms, and I'm honestly considering telling the good doctor about this and seeing what he thinks we should do.
I never needed medication to handle my anxiety until, frankly, I was married to First Husband and I started working at one of the most incredibly stressful jobs I can conceive of. (I was a public housing site manager) First Husband didn't seem to believe in cutting people any slack and routinely did things that made my anxiety worse. Sometimes I think he did them entirely on purpose, just to make me nervous. Actually, I'm pretty sure that is precisely what he did.
The way I see it, there's a distinct possibility that I may be far enough removed from chronic stress, and well enough equipped with behavioral tricks that I may be able to stop taking anxiety meds. And start enjoying grapefruit again. Yes, I'm really fixated on citrus. I live in FLORIDA, man! I could go buy a whole entire grapefruit tree and plant it in my front yard! "Be right back, gonna go harvest breakfast."
Tomorrow is my normal errand day, and I'm planning to go out as far as Flemming Island to shop for new jeans at Target. I also received a Zox order today so I have new straps to wear. I'm leaning towards "Zen," with a grey henley, jeans, and sandals. I may also be slightly obsessed with Zox. I got my first one on April 3 and now have seven of them. I'd have more if I weren't saving up in case they release either a new Zox Box and/or a subscription service.
So I'll get in a run, clean up and go buy stuff. Normally Tuesday is also "eating out day," in that I'll pick up pizza or something, but we're both leaning towards wanting healthier things for a while. It's not the Healthiest Dish Ever, but I'm planning on making buffalo broccoli and chicken. You roast the broccoli and pan roast the chicken, then mix up a light cheese sauce with blue crumbles, flour, butter, and cayenne pepper sauce, toss it all together, and it's actually really good. A friend has described broccoli as being, "Like a toothbrush for your colon." I'll leave you with that lovely mental image!
