Kung Fu Fighting With Myself
Jun. 6th, 2024 05:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pshaw_raven*ahem*
IT RAINED LAST NIGHT!
After a long stretch of dry weather it finally rained, and it dumped nearly two inches on us in half an hour. Not only has it been not-raining, but the humidity has been very low, too. It's the time of year when we worry about wildfires starting, especially living in the middle of hundreds of acres of woods made up of what's known as "lighter pine." I don't know if Fox is going to take advantage of the dampness to light up our trash pile, but he might.
I have an eye doctor appointment in Orange Park this morning, fun fun. I go all the way out there because the optometrist allows me to skip the glaucoma test. I know that no one likes the air puff test, but considering I'm jumpy enough that I have trouble putting my head to ANY of the machines, it's a courtesy I and my nervous system appreciate. I get extremely anxious and twitchy when anyone or anything is near my face. Anyway, I'll get fitted for new contacts, and hopefully also get a new set of glasses. The ones I'm wearing are two or three prescriptions out of date, but I typically only wear them around the house, and if I need to go anywhere, I put my contacts in.
I'm having a lot of distressing troubles with my comics. I started a few stories and now can't finish them. I mean, my brain would rather do literally anything than just pick up the fucking stylus, boot up Clip Studio, and just. fucking. draw. And I want SO badly to do it, but can't. I can't just flake out every time I get into the middle of a longer piece - I have a lot more stories about my world that I want to draw up and share, and the fact that I'm bogged down halfway through one is disheartening. My brain doesn't seem to care about any threats or bribes I devise and the only thing I can think of to do is literally try to force myself. Why should I have to force myself to do something I want to do? This is dumb.
Anyway, I've gotten my kanji and kana flashcards back out. I think my Japanese is better than I'm giving myself credit for. I just don't have a good way to practice speaking, and conversation is always my weakest point in language learning. I read French very well, but if you were to drop me in the middle of Paris, I'd likely forget every single French word I know if I had to ask someone for directions. I mean, in Tokyo I can at least remember "sumimasen." LOL
I think it's both funny and very telling that most of the kanji I recognize are related to food.
I don't have a running workout scheduled today but I do need to lift when I get home. My legs are still a little stiff and sore from Tuesday's workout, so I'm going to do mainly upper body lifts. My long run this weekend isn't that long, so hopefully I can get outside and run it instead of needing the treadmill, but if I do have to treadmill it, I can at least watch Assassination Classroom.
IT RAINED LAST NIGHT!
After a long stretch of dry weather it finally rained, and it dumped nearly two inches on us in half an hour. Not only has it been not-raining, but the humidity has been very low, too. It's the time of year when we worry about wildfires starting, especially living in the middle of hundreds of acres of woods made up of what's known as "lighter pine." I don't know if Fox is going to take advantage of the dampness to light up our trash pile, but he might.
I have an eye doctor appointment in Orange Park this morning, fun fun. I go all the way out there because the optometrist allows me to skip the glaucoma test. I know that no one likes the air puff test, but considering I'm jumpy enough that I have trouble putting my head to ANY of the machines, it's a courtesy I and my nervous system appreciate. I get extremely anxious and twitchy when anyone or anything is near my face. Anyway, I'll get fitted for new contacts, and hopefully also get a new set of glasses. The ones I'm wearing are two or three prescriptions out of date, but I typically only wear them around the house, and if I need to go anywhere, I put my contacts in.
I'm having a lot of distressing troubles with my comics. I started a few stories and now can't finish them. I mean, my brain would rather do literally anything than just pick up the fucking stylus, boot up Clip Studio, and just. fucking. draw. And I want SO badly to do it, but can't. I can't just flake out every time I get into the middle of a longer piece - I have a lot more stories about my world that I want to draw up and share, and the fact that I'm bogged down halfway through one is disheartening. My brain doesn't seem to care about any threats or bribes I devise and the only thing I can think of to do is literally try to force myself. Why should I have to force myself to do something I want to do? This is dumb.
Anyway, I've gotten my kanji and kana flashcards back out. I think my Japanese is better than I'm giving myself credit for. I just don't have a good way to practice speaking, and conversation is always my weakest point in language learning. I read French very well, but if you were to drop me in the middle of Paris, I'd likely forget every single French word I know if I had to ask someone for directions. I mean, in Tokyo I can at least remember "sumimasen." LOL
I think it's both funny and very telling that most of the kanji I recognize are related to food.
I don't have a running workout scheduled today but I do need to lift when I get home. My legs are still a little stiff and sore from Tuesday's workout, so I'm going to do mainly upper body lifts. My long run this weekend isn't that long, so hopefully I can get outside and run it instead of needing the treadmill, but if I do have to treadmill it, I can at least watch Assassination Classroom.
